Unhealthy Obsessions

snowflake challenge #7

Mon, 26 Jan 2026 22:43:17 GMT

three things i like about myself

1. i really don’t need a lot to pull a story out of scraps, on a good day. now, writing it out is a whole different animal…

2. i have too many interests and too many hobbiest and i am occasionally tempted to do even more — but i prefer that rather than having nothing

3. i am willing to make an effort. i can’t trust my brain with a lot of stuff but at least i can still trust myself with the ability of wanting to think.

yeah that was a dig to chatgpt. everyday i am just flabbergasted at how a lot of people are just delegating things (even things people generally do FOR FUN) to AI because they say it’s “easier” or “less effort”.

miss me with that shit

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snowflake challenge #4

Thu, 15 Jan 2026 23:22:59 GMT

rec the contents of your last page: websites that you like

first of all im gonna shamelessly plug my friend’s webcomic, the under garden: it has been one of my main fandoms for the past couple years (beside baldur’s gate, which was how i found his art and his comics) and it’s been a blast - you can read it on its own website or on webtoon

been attempting to de-google-fy myself for a while and i never liked google docs anyway, so i switched to writing on other platforms: my favourite lately have been obisidian - a personal knowledge base and note-taking application that operates on markdown files - and ellipsus - a web-based writing tool to write, edit and collaborate on any device, with handy options to share your work. trackbear is my tool of choice to track my progress

if there’s a website ive been spending too much time on is youtube - it’s very easy to click on a playlist while im doing chores or whatever and let it play. my favourite of late has been hannah alonzo channel - she’s been covering a lot of MLM content and critique of influencers and overconsumption. since it’s “useful” info i feel less like im frying my brain haha

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snowflake challenge #3

Thu, 15 Jan 2026 22:40:51 GMT

love letter to fandom

my love letter is to the concept of blorbo.

having a little guy (gender neutral) haunting your brain at all times is such a special thing. makes your days a little lighter and your nights a little less lonely. makes your brain a little more creative - put that blorbo in situations! - and fills you with feels.

occasionally, other people care about the same blorbo. and when you find those who are Correct about blorbo, you can make fast friends, and that’s also so special.

so shout out to all the little guys out there, and all the people squeezing blorbos, making the fandom alive and interesting and so various.

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snowflake challenge #1

Tue, 06 Jan 2026 02:05:44 GMT

The Icebreaker Challenge: Introduce yourself.

hello dear reader, this is deerna speaking. im a thirty-something from italy who loves writing and yapping about characters with their friends.

i mostly have been doing the writing thing for pre-existing media, but i’ve been dabbling in original writing here and there (although not much of it is available for reading, at the moment. in the future– who knows). the last fandoms i was decently active in were baldur’s gate 3 and the raven cycle/the dreamer cycle (before the writing block/burn out hit me like a metal lunch tray in the face, that is)

a couple reasons i decided to join the snowflake challenge this year: first of all because i always say i am gonna do it, and then i don’t. secondly, because i feel like it might be a good way to make myself write? i don’t know exactly why my instincts say so, but i am trusting my gut on this one.

feel free to interact with this post! i’ll do my best to reply / interact back.

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Reviewing 2025 | Writing

Thu, 01 Jan 2026 18:29:12 GMT

writing 2025: a summary

2025 masterlist

12 work(s) for 5 fandom(s)
posted 18.5k words
drafted 18k words

well. that went well. ~~what if i cry~~

welcome to the second worst year i’ve ever had. i need to remember that i was in the middle of moving out, and also dealing with the worst case of people can’t do their fucking job at work, so i should cut myself some slack, but also. welp.

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Reviewing 2025 | Fandom

Thu, 01 Jan 2026 17:55:01 GMT

fandom 2025: a summary

40 films (4 rewatched)
13 serials (2 rewatched)
19 books
2 comics (2 webcomics)
3 games (1 replay, 1 playthrough)

i did so much eating this year (and very little cooking– but that’s for another post). setting weekly habits w friends will do that to you!

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reviewing 2024 | writing

Sat, 18 Jan 2025 00:24:19 GMT

writing 2024: a summary

2024 masterlist

62 work(s) for 4 fandom(s)
posted 73k words
drafted 84k words

~~i’m late as fuck with this post but it’s fine~~. so apparently 2024 continued the trend that i picked up at the end of 2023 and wrote, wrote, wrote. it's my most productive year so far, even. on one hand i’m proud of myself; on the other hand i’m dreading this post lmao. my saving grace is that many of the things that i wrote aren’t available so i’m giving priority to those that can be read… but also i’ll be a cryptic fuck about those that can’t, why not.

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reviewing 2024 | fandom

Sun, 05 Jan 2025 00:55:21 GMT

fandom 2024: a summary

1 movie(s)
15 serial(s): 3 live action shows, 2 reality shows, 2 cartoons, 7 anime, 1 other
3 book(s): 1 non-fiction
2 comic(s): 2 webcomic(s)
2 game(s) + 3 walkthrough(s)

the way i had to literally open my trackers bc i have no idea what happened to my media consumption this year.

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reviewing 2023 | writing

Wed, 03 Jan 2024 20:47:45 GMT

writing 2023: a summary

2023 masterlist

posted 38.721 words
33 work(s) for 5 fandom(s)
drafted +60k words

what's up gamers, i wrote basically one third of the total wordcount in two months, and it's mostly astarion. the downside of this thing when i wrote so much is that i never know which stories to pickkkk please check out my masterlist and read the rest.

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Reviewing 2023 | Fandom

Wed, 03 Jan 2024 11:56:48 GMT

fandom 2023: a summary

11 movies: 1 rewatched, 5 animation, 1 other
27 serials: 3 rewatched, 4 live action, 6 western animation, 14 anime, 3 other
14 books: 5 re-read, 3 non-fiction
18 comics/manga: 11 korean toons, 3 manga, 3 digital comics, 1 webcomic
13 12 games: 7 pc, 1 rpg, 1 browser, 3 mobile

you know the brainrot is really getting to you when you open your media tracker and you're like "oh right, i did that". i have no recollection of the months before november, but hey, there was stuff before astarion took over my life, check it out.

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transformative works policy

Wed, 18 Jan 2023 22:16:28 GMT

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welcome

Sun, 08 Jan 2023 22:57:29 GMT

#a just death

deerna. 30+. they/them. ace & queer. a degree in languages. losing my goddamn mind by day and writing fanfiction by night. read my stories on dreamwidth and archiveofourown.

ao3 • dw • tmblr • pf • kofi • commission me • credit

Transformative works policy ~~fandoms & media~~

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Reviewing 2022 | fandom

Sun, 01 Jan 2023 20:53:07 GMT

fandom 2022: a summary

25 movies: 3 rewatches, 6 animation
42 books: 4 re-read, 1 did not finish
6 comics
44 serials: 2 rewatches, 4 reality tv, 10 western animation, 6 anime
14 games: 9 pc games, 1 rpg, 1 browser, 3 mobile

a lot of new media this year, a lot of strange stuff that hit me right in the guts. a seed of something that i hope to grow in the next year.

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recap dec 2022

Sun, 01 Jan 2023 18:32:07 GMT

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serials: more anime! kept following bnha s6, chainsaw man and blue lock as they came out. it's been years since i watched anime while they were airing. tried to do a bit of the community thing but i was too distracted with the end of the year review thingies to be consistent about it. in the last days a friend started making me watch library wars, which was a very good time. since i had a bunch of shit to sew (more news about that further on) i finally finished gentleman jack (i keep not giving a fuck about coal but she's the worst troublemaker), love, death + robots (meh. technically very good but the stories are underwhelming) and what we do in the shadows (just one season in but i'm having a great time)

games: i bought a bunch of stuff taking advantage of the winter sales on steam! townscaper is the cutest shit. im still not touching dishonored, and wasted a lot of time on overwatch 2 once again. ramrattra is still so far away T_T

reading: finished raven boys but got stuck on dream thieves - which is outrageous, it's the ronan book! i should be dying to read this! but i've struggled with Just Words. can't say the same with comics -- i re-discovered some old BL titles ive been reading on lezhin, some trashier than others lmao. my 2023 is looking fun.

WRITING

oh what a good joke. of course i didn't write anything. i wanted to join the smubbles event on discord but i spent the month gathering up plots from various corners of my digital life. i decided it counts as writing. i hope 2023 brings more. oh i also made the writing review for the past year... it was bad but not that bad. silver linings.

ART+CRAFT

i finished the goddang poofy shirt! and i did cosplay for the first time in forever! it was just a closet cosplay of harrowhark nonagesimus, little more than facepaint and dark clothes, but it was so fucking fun. i went completely insane and i decided to do more - so now im planning to make kim kitsuragi's jacket. i oredered fabric samples and everything. we'll see how it develops. i also printed out a shirt pattern to use up the left over linen, but i had to put that to a pause bc my friend asked an apron for xmas so i spent three-four days making that. i spent two full days hand sewing and watching tv shows. it was satisfying to draft a thing from the ground up and my friend was happy with it. it feels like a good omen.

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recap nov 2022

Fri, 02 Dec 2022 16:22:37 GMT

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serials: i watched a little more of gentleman jack, but this month i mostly rediscovered anime. my brain was too dead to watch 60 minutes long episodes but it was fresh enough to read subtitles, i guess!

boku no hero academia s5-s6: its been years since i watched the first seasons of bnha and i forgot how much of a good time it is. i love these goddamn kids and the adult characters are compelling too. special mention to the movies futari no hero - a lot of all might goodness - and world heroes' mission - these kids were put through the grinder, man, and the new character is adorable.
blue lock: i keep saying that i don't love spokons and i don't like soccer, but people are watching this and i was curious. it's strangely compelling. the premise isn't the usual stuff. i'm curious to see where it's going.
chainsaw man: about the anime, studio mappa is always insane and on the flex and we love them for it. the storytelling is tight and the story is fresh. im trying to be normal about it bc when i'll talk about the manga i won't.

games: it was finally time to say goodbye to hades, i played it as much as i could until it turned unfun. i managed to reunite achilles and patroclus so im satisfied. i finally started playing dishonored and as much as im finding the general mood interesting and engaging, i suck so hard at this, you guys. im currently on like, six hours of gameplay and i haven't managed to clear the first mission past the intro. it's bad. shout out to overwatch 2 who is back to owning my ass. i cannot lie, i missed these guys. im not honestly finding much of a difference with the old one, beside the 5-people team and the fact that the battlepass is meh. looking forward to the new character, ramratta. i still love omnics so much.

reading: i only read two books this months, but they were very nice in different ways. pyre at the eyreholme trust is a novella about magic and alternate roaring twenties, with a male on genderfluid romance. dirk gently's holistic detective agency was a struggle for the first half, but by the end i was reminded of what i really loved about the show so im glad. special mention to the webcomic cosmoknights, that was described to me like "same assignment as the locked tomb but different execution" and well, they're not entirely wrong: fighting the system, swords, lesbians. a rude butch with a golden heart. it tracks. and now, for the manga parenthesis.

boku no hero academia 231-374: holy fucking shit? i got distracted a hot minute there and everything has been happening while i wasn't looking. we're currently in the middle of the final battle and im distraught about a million things--and i must say that following the anime even knowing what its going to happen is a million times worse to see it in motion.
chainsaw man 001-112: mask off. i won't ever be normal about this. i don't want to spoiler anything but also what the fuck. what the fuck. it's one of the cruelest, rawest things i've ever read, but the continuous, shocking tone shifts also make it one of the stupidest, most ridiculous things i've ever seen.

WRITING

i haven't written much this month, only a couple thousand words of rewriting for the fisting fun with eskel thing i've been dragging around for a couple years now -- but i am starting poking around at my viper witcher oc's backstory. and i've written two book reviews and for the first time im managing to consistently journal every single day. i never really counted it as writing but i should. somehow.

ART+CRAFT

finally finished the poofy shirt project! it took me months but it's finally done. i was much quicker than i thought, in the past week. goes to show that if i put my mind to it and stop panicking i can make stuff... a big help was discovering that i can sew after the sun goes down with a good enough lamp. it sounds stupid but my little brain was blown away. im going to have to think about stuff for the next month... and year. i have plans for a capsule wardrobe and maybe even cosplay?

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recap | october 2022

Sun, 30 Oct 2022 21:15:37 GMT

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i finally finished my re-read of the locked tomb! i took a bunch of notes about stuff that i want to rotate my brain before next year, before alecto comes out, and i have more questions than ever haha. i finally read the captive prince trilogy, after hearing so much about it, but i can't say i was very much impressed with it. i loved a few scenes but for the most part it wasn't much my thing. i started reading a new trilogy about lesbians called when women were warriors that i was recced by a friend-- i didn't think i was going to like it, because it's in first person and it's not much my genre, but i'm having a great time with it. there's something extremely comforting about the style of narration, and im growing attached to the characters. i only need to finish the third book-- i'll write an update next month.
didn't watch any movie at all beside rewatching the intern with my dad, lmao. it's always a good one, i love anne hathaway.
i also didn't watch serials. i started gentleman jack s2 but to be honest i don't care much about the actual plot. i live for anne's looks into the camera though...
this month i played a lot of games! a blast from the past with overwatch 2: the gameplay is more or less the same as the old one, and it's still pretty fun, but i ended up uninstalling it almost right away. i might re-install it next month bc i have friends who want to play together, though. also, i played ac: revelations: i'm gonna miss ezio a lot, i had loads of fun. i struggled a bit with getting used to Costantinople, but i ended up growing attached to the assassins recruited in the city. i was discouraged to play ac3 so i will see desmond's demise on youtube. next was hades: i never finished the main story, so i did that--and then i started with the sidequests. i finally managed to win thanatos' heart haha. i should've started dishonored but it annoyed me leaving the other game unfinished. i also rediscovered roleplay games: online, i got back to fallen london, with my old account and with a brand new one; offline, i started exploring the world of solo-rpgs, starting with in pitch we're preserved, a game about surviving after a weird apocalypse made of tar. it was a weird experience, i feel like it taught me something about religion and magical thinking and my relationship with material objects. i enjoyed it a lot.

ART+CRAFT

manage to put together the poofy shirt! but it's not done yet, i need to backstitch all the seams, and then finish them, and then do the buttons... i hoped to finish by the end of the month but i spent most of my afternoons sleeping.
i didn't do much drawing, but for the first time in forever i did my nails! i made one mani inspired by the sixth house and one more generally inspired to the whole trilogy. i had to cut my nails at some point, but i definitely reached a record in lenght haha.

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recap september 2022

Thu, 29 Sep 2022 18:13:17 GMT

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introduction to t. kingfisher with the clocktaur war trilogy: i enjoyed it a lot and i had a very good time. then it was nona the ninth day! as usual, muir sent us for a loop. ive also re-read gideon the ninth and now im re-reading harrow the ninth, looking for clues… im a little behind with the goodreads challenge but i decided the rereads count!

finished playing assassin’s creed brotherhood: the latest ezio sequences were a bit boring, i didn’t appreciate the apple of eden as a weapon. i really enjoyed the parts with desmond though. i ended up growing really attached to him, for some reason. im aware that he’s not present in the other games (and i can guess why :C) and i was warned against AC3 so mh, we’ll see. for now im going to focus on revelations

writing/art+craft

i wrote a grand total of like, 80 words. the first paragraph of a thing. and that's it. that's the show.

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recap | august 2022

Mon, 05 Sep 2022 16:43:56 GMT

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the new season of helluvaboss is here! excited about the angst, absolutely heartbroken about the childhood trauma. can't wait to see what's next. the boys s3 was the usual mindbending good time, even if i didn't appreciate how much gorier it was in comparison to the other seasons. heartstopper was cute but it didn't quite hit the spot. i find i struggle with highschool romances lately. i need to chew harder stuff. but please let me tell you how much i fucking loved dirk gently's holistic detective agency! ive getting into puzzle-like media lately and i've missed putting together the pieces so much. i really had an amazing time and the characters are all the best.
i finally started playing assassin's creed: brotherhood; i think it's the first time i play games where i get to play the same character twice in a row and i was so happy to see ezio again. poor guy, he was so happy to back home and then things went to shit so quickly again lmao. anyway, i'm struggling a little with the storyline but now i got to leonardo again so everything is better haha. friend got me a controller: i'm curious to see if im going to have an easier time with it.
i read so much this month: i read basically anything by becky chambers i could put my hands on. it's a kind of slice-of-life sci fi that i really appreciate. i really like her writing and the themes she treats in her books. i finally cut my teeth on the locked tomb and now i'm waiting for nona the ninth like everyone else. i knew i was going to like it, which is why i waited so long to read it, but im glad i waited for the right moment. im now full heartedly obsessed with it and gleefully free to do it.

WRITING

it's done! the fic it's done! it's online! it's complete!

what my heart just yearns to say in ways that can't be said

...and now im stuck. hopefully i'll manage to unstick myself during the next month

ART+CRAFT

i haven't quite finished my poofy shirt yet, but i've made a post about my progress so far on pillowfort. i think im going to keep using it as a way to document it. also, i finished the 10 flowers project. i'm going to do birds starting from next week,,, it's going to be hard, i'm afraid

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recap | july 2022

Mon, 01 Aug 2022 15:42:18 GMT

beware of spoilers (umbrella academy)

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finished chewing on community. the last seasons were less strong than the beginning but i didn't mind them, even if really wasn't the same thing after troy left. umbrella academy s3 was a good time: the footlose dancing scene was the best thing ever, i enjoyed all the gender affirming bits for viktor (even if i'll never stop laughing about the fact that he didn't need to change name... his previous name was literally a russian nickname for ivan. it was already masculine! but anyway) and five as usual is an entire mood. i don't like whatever the fuck is going down with allison, she might have her reasons or whatever but it's just annoying. klaus' storyline with dear old fucking dad was darkly hilarious and im here for it. dad!diego got me good, im not gonna lie, so i was disappointed when it turned out that there was no kid after all, except the unborn one. that's too far down the line! i don't care enough about his relationship with lila. fei's aesthetic was immaculate even if my lamp had more personality, rest in power.

i was itching for more danny pudi so i finally started watching ducktales. i always read the ducks' stories in italian so im learning a lot of new names haha. i missed them; i always preferred donald duck over mickey mouse, when i read them as a kid (i never watched the original ducktales, it was comics only for me. grandma bought the weekly volumes for me every week... simpler times :'))

im still behind with my goodreads challenge but im catching up! i absolutely loved the long way to a small angry planet, and i absolutely need to get the sequels. it made my little xenofucker (and my robofucker) heart sing. the bear and the nightingale, our next pick for the bookclub, gave me a lot of feels: it's been a while since i read something that was set in the russia of folktales and i missed it quite a lot. and now, for something completely different: i put moscow noir on my trl bc i felt like it could've been a good example of what i wanted to do with an original novel i was working on. years later, im happy to say that i was fucking right. i don't read a lot of noir, despite wanting to write one, and i forgot how good and bad it feels to sink in that kind of darkness. i haven't finished it yet, but the short stories so far are very good (even if i could have done without the casual transphobia)

i finally finished assassin's creed II. i didn't expect to end it with a fistfight with the pope but i can't say i was disappointed. it was quite satisfying. i'm glad that there's still two more games with ezio bc i grew really attached to him.

Writing

writing keeps being the bane of my fucking existence, for the n month in a row but! beyond every expectation!

... i managed to finally unstick the damn commission. i finally managed to write the bit that i couldn't write. and now im just missing a couple more scenes and i can send the draft to beta.
i want to write my own shit. there's this little thing ive been writing for years now that routinely got stuck at random points... but between a few conversations with the witcher discord friends and moscow noir and a little heaviness of mind, i find myself missing my stupid little blorbo. who knows.

art+craft

thesunday flower sketch project keeps going strong: i liked how the poppies turned out, while the other three flowers are a bit disappointing, but the most important thing here is that im keeping going. slowly and surely. i hoped to do a little landscape painting or even gestures, but with my brain in the garbage it's a miracle i managed this at all so. no complaints.
i made good progress on the poet shirt! i joined the back and front pieces, i attached the collar and i sewed the gussets to the sleeves. i still have to gather the sleeves at the wrists and at the shoulders, attach the wristcuffs, attach the sleeves to the body, join the sides, do the hems, and do something about the buttons. It's... a bit. But it's not too much! I'm very hopeful to finish it by the end of the next month and to start on something else, too.

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recap | june 2022

Sun, 10 Jul 2022 13:40:27 GMT

warning: might contain spoilers (namely: stranger things)

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finally watched venom 2! it was a lot of fun. i usually watch movies in their original audio, but this time the italian dub did an amazing work on the delivery of a certain line lmao. i also watched red notice one night when i was bored, and i didn't dislike it (i liked the twist at the end) but i feel like action movies lately have issues with the pacing of the action sequences. they're too long! the chase and the fight are supposed to give you adrenaline, not "ugh okay tell me when it's over" vibes!
i've been chewing through the first few seasons of community and im really liking it. a bit relieved i didn't watch it too soon bc i would've absorbed abed's personality wholesale and that would've been an issue. i also watched stranger things vol.2 and well. im gonna have to watch s5 just to be properly disappointed about will's storyline, i guess. im a bit shocked with their decisions for eddie's storyline and it just cemented my suspicions about him being another flavor of billy. questionable choices! i genuinely don't care enough about the rest to be disappointed about it haha but will. dammit.
im really behind with my goodreads challenge. we finished the simon snow trilogy with anyway the wind blows; my fave book is still the second installment, but it was a good ending and a satisfying read. next for the book club was small gods: i struggled a bit with tpratchett's writing this time for whatever reason, but the book itself was really good and full of little smart things that i enjoyed. a masterclass in reflections about heavy topic but done with good faith and in an entertaining way.
i finally played disco elysium and well. im heavily compromised. i expected to enjoy it but i didn't expect to find it so interesting! and i absolute would kill and die for kim kitsuragi (like most of the fandom anyway, i know im not special)(im not quite thinking about writing fic for it but, i have a few ideas...)

WRITING

the less is said the better. it was a complete failure. i did a little progress but not enough.

ART+CRAFT

im keeping up with my sunday flower sketches; im quite happy with how they're turning out but i wish i had more energy to dedicate to drawing... on the other hand, i finally finished the damn blanket!! i finally started officially on the next project, cutting the linen for the shirt. i hope to getting it done in july. i had quite a push to plan more things to sew...

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recap | may 2022

Tue, 07 Jun 2022 21:35:06 GMT

warning: might contain spoilers (namely: stranger things, hollow knight)

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turns out that set it up is a romcom with rights. special mention to downtown abbey II: a new era because it's the first time i went to the movies in forever and it was good but strange.
eurovision was fun but i wasn't too hyped for it, despite it being in italy. i liked ukraine's entry, but i preferred france's fulenn and moldova's trenulețul. on the other hand, our diodato, måneskin and mika did some great live performances ♥
putting a dent in my to-read list: we read 2/3 books of simon snow and it was an amazing time, especially wayward son because vampires, obviously. dracula daily is still going strong. the southern book club's guide to slaying vampires was a surprisingly heavy read; well done, absolutely fucking terrifying because of the realistic element rather than the supernatural one. i made an attempt with camere separate but i couldn't; i'm sorry because it's queer and italian and god knows how rare that is, but i think i had my fill of sad gay stories.
finally watched ted lasso and tumblr didn't like: it was really a good time, even if i don't give a shit about soccer. stranger things is back; i like the new guy and im lowkey shipping him with steve ~~and billy, who is perfectly fine and alive in my dreams~~
finished hollow knight: i had to cheat in order to finish it but i don't regret it. i'll never be happy again after learning the whole story, and after the final battle against the hollow knight (i've been listening to the ost obsessively, too). ao3 has little, precious fic, and that's how im surviving.

WRITING

i haven't posted anything, but i did some impressive progress on the infamoous ace geralt fic. i finally finished part 1 and part 2, and im putting a dent in part 3. hopefully by the end of june it'll be done. (i know i said it was going to be done by the end of may but eh. that didn't happen clearly. im also glad i finally started working on the novelization of the dnd campaign, dunya. it's a little unnerving, because im writing an original character on top of characters that belong to friends, but i'm having a grand time so far.

ART+CRAFT

the craft part was pretty much a complete failure, because i didn't get shit done, but on the art side i'm keeping up with the weekly digital drawing. i finally found a way to keep it consistent. i don't know if it'll work with the next set of subjects (flowers) but im gonna keep experimenting. i also practiced watercolor a little, taking advantage of movie nights with friends. i'm pretty proud of it.

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recap | april 2022

Thu, 12 May 2022 13:35:52 GMT

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lots of catching up, this month. this is us s5, which was long overdue lmao. as usual i enjoyed it very much, i think it's the only drama i can stand. dialogue and storytelling is always strong and it never fails to make you shit bricks on the finale. brooklyn nine-nine s8 was another thing that i kept putting off bc i didn't want it to be over. they picked a good time to end it, i think. you can't keep dragging a thing forever, and eight seasons is still a pretty long time. they stopped before it could turn bad and they did it well (winking a little at current times issues. good for them). our flag means death, obviously, bc everyone and their mothers has been talking and giffing and fanarting about it. i enjoyed it very much and it would be silly of me to deny how good it is, but my brain is still wholeheartedly devoted to my other blorbos so it hasn't clicked with me entirely. i thought i was going to be insane about jim but the magic wasn't entirely there (i do love vico ortiz though. call me). if i had to nominate a blorbo from this show (besides ed, who is basically default) i would pick lucius i think. yeah yeah i know. predictable.

in conclusion, bookclub time: we finished magnus chase, which ended on a strong, lovely note, and i finally dug my teeth in my first terry pratchett, pyramids. the general mood was 'what the fuck did i just read' but in the most positive way you could think of. the amount of layers of humour and commentary is astonishing.

WRITING

the goddamn ace geralt commission is finally going somewhere! i managed to get the first part to a somewhat final draft and im steadily chewing on part two. let's hope may will be the month it sees the light of day.

on the other hand, i posted a few fics that i wrote during february and march that just needed a bit of formatting:

a million stars away, a tiny reflective piece about my dnd blorbo and their half-orc boyfriend.
drought, an old-ass short piece about jaskier being (spoiler) angsty on the beach.
about those definitions, the royed where they're both suicidal and alcoholic that was missing the ending.
through the cracks, about jesper touching himself while he thinks of kaz. set in a nebulous canon between the tv show and the books, bc of course.

writing still feels like pulling teeth, and it doesn't help that i finally noticed how much i suck at endings. i knew that but hey. i also have no idea how one would go about at doing practice on that (other than writing, that is) (this sounds like a scam)

ART+CRAFT

i'm pretty satisfied of my progresses in this area. i finally attached the binding to the blanket; i have to fell three sides and then i'm done. i also bought the fabric for the shirt; it turned into a double project because i want a generic floofy shirt tm on top of the lambert shirt whose embroidery i still have to plan. i figured it might be a good idea to make a first, plainer attempt to familiarize myself with the process, before going for the complex one. (excuses, excuses. but no, really). also, i've been drawing digitally quite a lot, and i had a lot of practice with inks and watercolors; a friend got me a few inks and a fancy glass dip pen last year, but i didn't have time to try it until now. it's a lovely medium but my drawing skills are still too meh to really appreciate it. i need to practice more.

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recap | march 2022

Fri, 01 Apr 2022 17:19:31 GMT

FANDOM

finally listened to/watched heathers the musical, which is a good, ironic, dark time.

i finally finished reading bend sinister, which once again made me mad at nabokov because the guy is just too aware of language and of his own craft. (it pains me because he uses writing in such an expressive way and i would love to plagiarize the hell out of him for my own shit but it feels too pretentious for this century. i always feel like writing have to feel effortless, these days-- close to the way normal people talk and feel and thing, and a thing like literary nabokov doesnt sit well with that kind of aesthetic. my own writing strives to be quick and to the point, no excess.--not that im getting paid for it. not for the things that matter to me. but i digress).

also finally started magnus chase and yes, i fell in love with alex fierro. i was a fool. i waited too long. rick riordan once again demonstrates that he does the homework, thank you very much. im just missing the third book in the trilogy and i cannot wait.

watched doctor who s14 and as much as i love her, i don't think i got it. i don't enjoy it as much as i used to, i think, despite my fondness for the characters and for the universe. it's a pity.

it probably doesn't count as a fandom but since mr joey batey and miss madeleine hyland stuffed the thing with lore i might as well mention that i finally listened to ruin. i still need to chew on it i think.

WRITING

i wrote more than i expected but not as much as i wanted. im struggling a bit with getting words out and getting what i want, but i managed to write at least a fic per week for the challenge. better than nothing.

ART + CRAFT

i finally finished the embroidery on the dnd bag! i wanted to start binding the blanket too but i keep procrastinating. i didn't go back to watercolor either, but i followed the list on the plant project. it's going slowly but the important part is not giving up.

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recap | january + february 2022

Thu, 03 Mar 2022 18:29:49 GMT

new project for 2022: one post a month with a quick update about fandom discoveries and art+craft projects. seems doable, right? except i’m already behind, but nevermind that.

warning: might contain spoilers

( january )

( february )

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Reviewing 2021 | writing

Fri, 24 Dec 2021 22:21:39 GMT

Writing 2021: a summary

Masterlist 2021

21.766 words /gross sobbing
9 works, for 3 fandoms

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